Our biggest fight is always with Our selves to let go and let GOD. Our biggest fight is to get out of the way and trust GOD.

I am encouraged when I come across writings I’ve done in the past where I fought myself to be still. I am especially encouraged when I see the date of my initial writing and when I consider where I am today. I see my growth.

I am grateful to not only see my growth, but to realize the hand of our Heavenly Father on my life. HE has kept me thru so much.

Some times we need to be reminded of that.

We are not walking the journey alone. Our Heavenly Father is near – as close to us as His Word on our lips.

He cares for us. He protects us. He provides for us. He saves us. And we only have one job…

To believe

This is why we battle our flesh. Pummeling our selves and leading our selves as a slave to be still. Stand still and trust the Lord. 

This is me being still.

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Originally written by me on December 8, 2019, this still rings true for me today…

FATHER,
You alone know…

Who 🙇
What 🙇
Why 🙇
When 🙇
Where 🙇
And How 🙇

What I am not going to do is move before YOU tell me to.

This battle is yours not mine.

You told me, after informing me of who my fight is truly against, that when I’ve done all I can to just STAND.

So that is what I am doing. I am standing.

I stand…
With a grateful heart that I have been counted worthy to be on the battlefield.

I stand…
With a prayerful heart knowing that YOU are my avenger and YOU will repay tribulation to those who pay it to me.

I stand…
With a strong heart knowing that when YOU are for me who can be against me.

I stand…

This is not about me.
It never was about me.

You asked me Father would I still say yes. You asked me if I knew what else you required of me would I still say yes.

I said Yes 🙋 fully knowing that I would have to go thru some *ish and deal with some *ites

I said yes knowing that it was going to cost me, break me, and crush me

But I also said yes because I know that You are near to the broken hearted and the crushed ones you save

I said yes to You because I know that you will not let me go thru more than I can bear

I said yes to You because I know that what You bring me to You will bring me thru.

I said yes to You because I know that those who bear fruit You will prune so that we can bear more fruit.

So I submit to YOU FATHER and I close my eyes to this Matrix I find myself in.

I know what the Lord Jesus said about these days we live in.

At the end of the day, I choose King Jesus.

So FATHER, it is in Christ Jesus name that I lay before You now. Jesus said that in HIS name I can ask you for whatever I want and You will give it to me.

I ask, in the name of Jesus, for endurance. You said to let patience have it’s work complete that I may be complete in all respects.

You said you will give to the tired one dynamic energy and that we will mount up on wings like eagles.

DADDY, I only want one thing.
In the name of Jesus.

I want You.

I need to be hidden.
I need the intimacy of being carried in the bosom of the Lord.
I need peace in the Middle of the storm.
I need to be firmly girded so the storm doesn’t get in me.

I give you my heart.

I give you me.

In the name of Jesus Christ

Amen.