It is 3:30am and I realize yet another prayer was answered.

I asked King Jesus to teach me to pray

… and HE made me a wife, and a mother of adult children.

Lol

This morning I want to thank the Lord for blessing my husband and for allowing him to know HIM as a waymaker.

Oh Lord God Almighty
I am learning that the more I dig down into you for myself. The more I fight to do your will myself. The more I trust and believe your written word myself. Inspite of what this world shows me. The more I speak your word and ground myself down in your word.

…the more those around me begin to experience their own victories and learn to trust you.

In this marriage you have taught me to ground my feet

Where the world walks away. Where the world feel and speak what they dont have to deal with. Where the world separates and divorces…

…you gave me “divorce is not an option” and thru many tears and prayers you taught me to trust you, believe you, become rooted in you.

You told me to not give up, grow weary, or tire out in well doing because I will reap a harvest if I do not tire out.

You told me that the heart of the king is in the hands of the Lord and that the most powerful thing I could do for my family is pray.

When I had issues and I would come to you about the issues, you chastened me by showing me myself and where I was not applying your word myself.

That wasn’t always comfortable Daddy but today I appreciate that lesson so much. You taught me in the difficult times to ask you to help me apply your word myself and not worry about my perceived opponent because you had them.

You taught me to watch my words. You are still teaching me that one.

You gave me a face of flint to help me to stand during times when others considered me foolish for my beliefs in you. You made me victorious.

You have definitely set a well oiled table before me in the sight of my enemies. And Daddy you have turned things around in the most amazing way so that those who were enemies began to have a change of heart.

You showed me how we were all once enemies to you but how we had to learn to trust you for real. It didn’t happen overnight. But by not giving up in prayer and not letting go of your word you brought us thru and to manifested promises.

My heart is joyful
My heart is grateful.
My heart is blessed
To see my family individually and collectively begin trusting in you more and more and more and coming to know you in Spirit and Truth for themselves.

Not religion.
Not churchy
But all YOU.

Lord God Almighty.
This here life you have given me
Glory be to God
I am grateful

This that I am enjoying
This that I call my life
…And that hasn’t even reached its full peak
But is blossiming
…And putting off the beginnings of fruit

This is all because of You.
If I didn’t fight in prayer
If I didn’t water this garden with my tears
If I didn’t toil many nights to understand your word so that I could apply it…
… I wouldn’t be enjoying this

This isn’t made for tv
This took hard work
It took much humbling
And breaking
And surrendering

And obedience to You Father was the key

We try to label other people to justify ourselves. And we miss the reward of a life committed and submitted to you.

At the end of the day
This
Was worth the fight.
Worth the struggle
Worth the ridicule
Worth the ostracism

And I feel right now at 4am
Ready to go even further.

I want to be able to stand before you
And have my family and many friends to present to you all because I didn’t give up when things got hard but instead I dug in my feet and rooted down in you in prayer.

Because I believed your word to be true and I fought to apply it in my own life and walk it out in my own life. And because I was willing to look stupid in the eyes of many as I openly shared my journey with you because I knew that I overcome thru my faith AND my testimony.

Oh Lord God Almighty.
Thank you
For my life
For this journey
For how you are blessing my husband
And my children
For how you are teaching me what it really means to be a wife and a mother
And how it’s nothing at all to do with what this world presents being a wife and a mother to be.
And how one cannot be a wife and be all up in their feelings.

Whew!
The fact that you chose me for this assignment bewilders me.

Why did you choose me?

Is it because you knew that I would run to you in difficult times.
Is it because you knew I would lift them to you and place them in your hands.

I don’t know why you chose me
But I’m so glad you did.
And I’m so glad that you are with me helping me and teaching me what to do

I couldn’t do this without you.
No one can which is why so many marriages are falling apart and so many families are broken.

I couldn’t do this without you.
And I wouldn’t want to.

Thank you Lord.

Thank you Father. For everything. I’m grateful.

In the name of Jesus Chriat