(Originally Shared on my personal social media page on September 29, 2020.)

Longer than normal post…

I am not rich in the ways of this world. I can’t say that enough.

I some times want to take a screenshot of my bank account just so that I can prove this.

Nevertheless,
I don’t worry about money and I don’t worry about things. This is because my Dad owns it all. Psalm 50:10.

I don’t worry about anything. If I am in need I know to go to Him. Matthew 6:33,34

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I remember a long time ago I would say to my husband that I wanted to go XYZ and he would say to me that he didn’t know how we could go XYZ because our finances did not equal what would be needed to go and plus we had this bill and that bill and the other bill. Lol

(This was in the early days he doesnt do that now.)

I would get mad at him and go straight to Dad. You see I never looked to my husband to make the way. I looked to our Dad to do so and all I wanted from the hubby was the agreement of faith because When two or three agree on a matter of serious condern, what we bind or loose on earth is bound or loosed in heaven. Matthew 18:18-20.

Therefore, if Dad dropped in my heart to go XYZ then I was going XYZ. I didn’t know when. I didn’t know how. But I knew I was going. And when I would go I would praise God because I knew He made it happen.

True enough i would go. Dad would always make a way.

How did I know this? How did I know that God would make a way?

God taught me to believe.

And Ezekiel told me that when I was asked to believe something, if I’d struggled with believing, I could always ask God for the answer. Ezekiel 37:1-14.

That has been my life. Once I understood that God is real for real my life has been crazy amazing. Things changed.

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Not everyone knows my story. Not everyone knows that I sat in jail from 2002 to 2009.

Some would think that my purpose for being in jail was because of the label man gave it.

No one knew that I had too many distractions around me so Dad had to sit me Still and get my attention.

No one understood that I was broken and needed to be healed so that I wouldn’t hurt people.

No one knew how deep my wounds were because I didn’t call people to dump on them.

Ergo, jail was my hospital.

It’s where Dad did the necessary surgery on me and I couldn’t avoid it because I was made to be still. All distractions were removed. All excuses were nullified. I was at the mercy of the only true and living God.

He had to rebreak me because my broken areas had set incorrectly. So I had to be rebroken so that I could be set straight. Isaiah 1:18,19.

I was willing.

I almost said that I didn’t have a choice. But the truth is I did have a choice. In jail is distractions also. So you can either let God do the corrective work, knowing that He corrects those whom He loves (Hebrews 12:5-12) or you can get stuck in the revolving door of recidivism.

God got my attention because He woo’ed me in the most amazing way. I heard his voice all around me. I felt like ‘the boy in the bubble’ (a movie) because of how he surrounded me.. and I learned obedience thru the things I suffered.

Not once did I call on anyone to bring me out.
Not once did I look to man to save me.
Not once did I depend on man for provisions.

I took God up on his offer to prove him. Malachi 3:10-12.

It was in 2003 that God began to fish me. I was caught and drawn like a fish out of water.

I began to fall in love with Jesus to a depth that man cannot touch. He snatched my heart and proved himself to my heart and that is when I began to die.

My heart became buried in Christ to the point that I didn’t look to man. And I still don’t.

2004 to 2009 was a period of training for me. I wrote and wrote and wrote as God was teaching me. i wrote everything I was hearing and learning. I wrote… And I still write today.

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Many times different ones would see me sitting straight up with a pen in my hand and paper and a bible on my lap and my eyes would be closed. They would come and try to take my pen and make me lie down but I would cry out “don’t touch me”.

They had no idea looking at me that the Holy Spirit was talking to me. To them I looked as if I was sleep sitting up. They had no idea the pain that would shoot thru my body when they would touch my pen or I.

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Dad taught me to hear him.
Dad taught me to trust him.
Dad taught me to prove him.

So what I share are truths I have learned from doing just that. I share what I learn from those conversations I have with Dad.

And yet when I share, somehow it’s not heard what I say. Instead I am seen. Instead people see me when I’m really just a secretary penning what I hear, learn, and experience.

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Who am I, except the daughter of a KING.

Elohim who created me, created you too.

But many won’t listen to Him. Heck, I didn’t always listen either. (For.everyone I frustrated when I didn’t listen – I apologize. I am very grateful that you didn’t give up in speaking, calling, inviting and trying to draw me to Christ.)

It appears that people get annoyed with me when I share over and over and over again the goodness of God to those who love him, to those who trust him, to those who seek his face.

I would speak of what I was learning to be true and of the blessings that come with obedience. I get excited over these things because I am being blessed back to back to back for my obedience to God’s Word and it is blowing me away because there is truly a difference between knowing God’s Word and obeying it.

I grew up knowing God’s word. But when I began to obey it and meditate upon it and seek to understand it in order to apply it… OMG!!!
The wealth.

But, I would find that no one wanted to hear the truth. No one would want to hear of God.
Many want the blessings without following the requirements to get it and keep it.

Like addicts they want that quick fix and I refuse to be anyone’s enabler or supplier. I am no one’s drug dealer.

Therefore I readily ask
Who do you think that I am that you would call me during your times of trial?

God said if there is any one in trouble PRAY. He didn’t say call me. I am no one’s answer.

So people will then get mad when I question their faith and belief in God when they call me.

Me: “You don’t believe in God?”
Them: “I do believe, but…”
Me: ” there is no buts when it comes to God. He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all you can ask or think. God was clear about why you won’t receive.

He said that what will keep you from receiving what you asked for in the name of Jesus is two things:

1. Doubt. James 1:5 says the one who doubts will not receive anything. Hebrews 11:6 says that without faith it’s impossible to please God well. So the minute you say “But” you cancelled your receipt.
2. You ask for selfish purposes. James 4:2,3 says You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God.When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures. – James 4:2-3 NIV

People with habits come up with all types of excuses for why they need money. Aint nobody got money to be funding somebody’s drug habits.

Ok but what if the issues are not drug related?
It’s really easy. PROVE GOD.

Jeremiah 1: 12 say that he is keeping watch to fulfill his word.

Isaiah 55:11 says that his word will not return to Him void

Matthew 6 says that you are more important than the birds of the heavens and the flowers of the field so he will feed and clothe you because he knows you need these things. But again He tells you what to do. He said, “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these other things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33,34

That was the first scripture that I proved God on. When I got out of jail I put God first and he blessed me. When I was in school and had tons of homework, I didn’t tell God “no I can’t I’m too busy” when he called for me to be his hand extended or when I was called to serve one of his children. I put God first and I believed Matthew 6:33,34 that because I put God first that he would help me in all I needed to get done.

I have my Bachelor’s and Master’s degree because God helped me and because I trusted God. I didn’t give an excuse. God said to do or not do and I did or didn’t do as I was instructed.

So what one does when one calls themselves believing in God but … Is they are trying to go around what our parent says to do.

Now if I help any one to do anything other than what God says do, then that makes me an accomplice and I dont have time for that. I’ve done that once before. I’m not doing that again for any one no matter how one tries to dress it up and make it sound spiritual or religious.

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I am a daughter of God as you are a son or daughter of God. So why would you call me in your time of need? If God sends you to me, it’s because I am instructed to point you back to Him. It’s because I know that I am not your Savior, Jesus Christ is. And guess what Jesus said…

Luke 6:46 why do you call me Lord Lord and do not do what I tell you.

So ultimately now what we are looking at is rebellion.

Listen again…

The child does not take the place of the parent.
The child does not have authority. The parent does.

Dad says, Is there anyone in trouble? Let him pray. James 5:13

Dad says, Call to me in the day of trouble and I will deliver you and you will honor me. Psalm 50:15

Yet, man has been somehow taught to lean on another man instead of going to Elohim.

Somehow in all of the church services that man has attended they didn’t learn that Jehovah is whatever we need. He is I Am That I Am. He cannot be put into a box. He is limitless.

But man wants to continue to lean on another man who is limited because of sin.

God’s Word says that we can do all things THRU CHRIST who strengthens us.

On my own I am nothing. Jehovah Shammah helps me. Psalm 91:1.

On my own my path is crooked. Jehovah Nissi straightens my path for me and sends forth angels before me to prepare the way. Romans 8:28.

On my own I have nothing. El Shaddai is my Supplier. 2 Corinthians 9:8-15

Just like God has supplied and equipped me, He also supplies and equipps each and every one of his children.

And in harmony with 2 Corinthians 1:3,4 this is why I will always point a person back to Jesus Christ whenever they come to me for anything.

Silver and Gold I don’t have but what I do have I give.

In the name of Jesus I give the Word of God because I know it works if you work it. I can’t work it for you, you have to do it.

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2 Corinthians 1: 3, 4 says…
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Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3‭-‬4 NIV
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This verse says that I can only comfort you with the comfort I have received from God.

Yes, this is why I always direct people back to God.

I am not the answer. God is.

If there is anything you need God will provide is. He is Jehovah Jireh. I am a living witness.

I don’t just have old testimonies. I have new ones.

Dad does this for his children.
He tells us that when we delight ourselves in him he gives us the desires of our heart.

This is what I be trying to tell people.
This is why I always point people to Gods Word.

Nobody can give you what they don’t have.

But wouldn’t you also rather receive something that does not run out.

God is the Source.
He doesn’t run out.
There is nothing of more value that you can receive.

So, why not receive God for real.
Why not prove God.

You won’t regret it.