I labored and gave birth from January 14 to the 15 and of all of my labors this was the most difficult.

On Monday the 16th I’m still trying to rest and slowly getting back into the swing of things.

I literally feel like something huge was extracted from me and it was. I birthed an entire school that has one course with four more courses coming in the future.

I didn’t know how to act afterwards. There was a whole hallow feeling in my gut and an excitement in my mind as what I had been working on all these months came to be.

Even now. I dont know how to parent this that was birthed. I dont know what to do except to keep creating.

I think I did right in giving it back to God who says to me one plants one waters but growth comes from God.

I entrust the growth of the training workshop to God.

But let me say I have don’t some huge things before but never have i done anything this big.

There is a charge to access it with a small percentage being free. But that charge will enable me to purchase the larger platform and add the other courses.

I wait for the Lord on that and while I believe Him for the provision, my assignment is to work on preparing for it.

In the meantime, I’m trying to figure out how to be.

Considering I birthed 7 children I should be a pro at this but my children are all adults now. My last child was born over 24 years ago. So believe me when I say I forgot.

I remembered how much energy it takes. I remembered feeling drained and relieved afterwards. But I don’t remember feeling as if I knew what to do afterwards.

As a matter of fact I feel as if many new parents don’t know what to do after birthing.

That’s it. That’s where I am at. I don’t know what to do. I’m on unchartered territory. But I know I will be fine because I gave it back to the Lord along with myself.

I am humbled that the Lord saw fit to choose me for this.

I can’t do this without Him. I need the Lord every step of the way. So here we go…