I have been up since 3am. But at 7am my energy is already depleting fast.

This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed.But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God. – John 3:19-21 NIV

This is what came to mind as I took my vitals this morning.

Here are my results (Livongo won’t allow me to snapshot it so I can’t give you a picture without … Maybe if I pull it up on the computer and that means I would have to walk over to it. Remember my challenge is my leg and for some reason my stomach.)

Weight 198.8 (gained .2 lbs after eating breakfast – 29grapes 14 small squares of pepper jack cheese and 19 thin slices of pepperoni, forced myself to eat that because I skipped dinner after eating one biscuit last night for break-fast)

Blood sugar 116
Blood pressure 107/69

All of my medical health readings for 6/2/23 are normal.

Yet something is so off.

Today, I thought for a second that having lived so many years with abnormal, when the normal is experienced, it feels weird. (That’s what I heard.) I need to relearn what normal feels like. But it’s hard to feel the normal because of the leg issue.

But I choose the light.
And I choose the normal.
So I got to figure this out.

Ive been under attacks before.
I am a giant slayer.
Ive been tripped or pushed out of rooms that only I was in.
I’ve had my rotator cuff torn with no falls and no explanation as to why.

Out the blue my leg now worsens, and I don’t know what is going on with my stomach, or Why?

💡
But, I know why I’m being hit.
Again.

And guess what
I have no complaints because
The change that is happening is so beautiful.

Not in me.
That part shared above is a plus.

I am talking about the change that is happening in those around me is beautiful.

So as for me
For whatever this is that is hitting me hard
In my body

This is what comes to mind…

For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise:“For yet a little while, And He who is coming will come and will not tarry. Now the just shall live by faith; But if anyone draws back, My soul has no pleasure in him.”But we are not of those who draw back to perdition, but of those who believe to the saving of the soul. – Hebrews 10:36-39 NKJV

I have been here before in the birthing of
I Am A Giant Slayer,
Giant Slayer – The Training Manual,
Dressed for Battle online school

What am I pregnant with now???

LEGACY – Our Inheritance, From A Living Trust to a WILL

I am not dying.

Father said I would be given the strength to complete.

But HE didn’t say it would be easy.

Daddy, you promised me a little help (Daniel 11:34) Yet, I know, I know. Your grace is sufficient for me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)

The lesson I am learning is how to walk in this.

One step at a time. A little here a little there with your help.

I am learning to hold tight to your hand every step of the way. You got me. Because I trust in you I won’t be ashamed.

So when I need to rest, rest I will.

I need to stop pushing myself like a task master. That’s not from You Father.

I need to listen and obey.

I need to and I will.

Update:

I thought I published this already so I was surprised to find it in my drafts.

Nevertheless I’m glad to share this update.

I asked the doctor to do bloodwork on me and it came back that I was severely anemic. Immediately I started taking iron pills and I began juicing intently to add fresh beet juice to my diet. Beets are a good source of iron.

Then, I had an annual eye exam and I was told by the new eye doctor that my organs in my body were good.

You know I had to ask the doctor about it.

She said that when you look at the back of the eyes it will reveal whether or not there are any issues in your body. So to hear that is just what I needed.

My eyes were fine and my organs were fine too.

So now I’m in a place of maintenance. I continue to juice. And slowly I am adding more veggies to my juicing as I learn the benefits and this has been rewarding for me in that my body is responding.

And as I sit back and consider it all I realize that this was a lesson in listening.

Our body speaks to us. Our bodies warn us ahead of time. Do we listen?

I’m learning to listen 😁.